I am on the brink of a lot of “newness”, and a lot of change. Though I know the seasons of ordinary sameness, quite a bit actually, both have their charms and challenges. But this week is my last week, for the next two years anyway, of living in a city I have grown to fall completely in love with; a city I actually consider “home”.
Newness is exciting, daunting and refreshing. There is a new landscape, both interior and exterior, that we are invited to explore and discover as we take the leap into this new change. It can feel like you are entering a season of becoming. I have found this especially true when experiencing new ways of thinking and believing. My spirituality and faith life for instance, has taken on new forms and depths the last two years. It felt like I was completely free falling as I began to deconstruct. But the liberation I experienced during some of the reconstruction showed me how much risk and the “new” are more about adventure than they are about the fear of landing somewhere, or really, the fear of not landing at all. It is in the newness we begin to realize how much he are held by something bigger, and how little we need to hold it altogether.
Newness can bring with it a lot of unknown. The risk we take in leaving what has become our norm, and propelling ourselves into something we don’t quite know as familiar yet, makes us ask all the “what if’s”. It can stir in us some anxiety, doubts or fear. As well as hope, excitement and courage. It is a bit of both/and in my opinion. We can simultaneously feel these paradoxical emotions and it still be a healthy and good change.
Do you feel a sense of “newness” emerging in your life? If so, in what way? What is the fear and anxiety saying to you about it, or about yourself? What do you feel excited for in this newness? Where do you sense hope?
As these summer months begin, let yourself fall into this new rhythm. Savour the moments of sameness, and dig deep into yourself for the courage you need to embark on this new beginning.
I will leave you with one of my favourite blessings from John O’ Donohue
FOR A NEW BEGINNING
In out-of-the-way places of the heart, Where your thoughts never think to wander, This beginning has been quietly forming, Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire, Feeling the emptiness growing inside you, Noticing how you willed yourself on, Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety And the gray promises that sameness whispered, Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent, Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled, And out you stepped onto new ground, Your eyes young again with energy and dream, A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear You can trust the promise of this opening; Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning That is at one with your life’s desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure; Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk; Soon you will home in a new rhythm, For your soul senses the world that awaits you.